9/11/12

This is not a poem

Not a letter

Just my thoughts on paper

Not a attention getter

I'm kind of tired of always being "ok"

When can I say FUCK IT

And have it my way!?!?!

I'm tired of smiling when I wanna cry

Being that friend u need

Like one of the guys!

But I'm not " ur nigga"

See "Nigga" I'm the ONE

To elevate u to another level

...SHOW U SOMETHIN'!!

But all you see is what u get

So maybe I'm at fault...

All I've been

Is your friend...

That's just gotta stop!

Never wanted it to be this way

Never wanted to care

Told myself I could handle this

But hell life just ain't fair!

Why cant I love the one that loves Me?

Why can't he just do right and see what I see?

Instead life takes a turn

And now you're my point of view

Never did I see this coming

Never thought twice about you!

You weren't my type

Hell, neither was I yours

We clicked on some other shit

Now the tables turned!

Why didn't I avoid you?

And run the other way!

Attraction so strong...

Away I couldn't stay...

I can't forgive myself for what I've done to me...

Went in blind, had no time for what I shoulda' seen...

Told myself that we could kick it

Laugh, joke-be cool...

You ain't complainin' this is perfect

But I end up the fool!

I can't do this any more

I gotta be real

Say the words that express how I really feel

You know me

I down play at all

Act like I'm the strongest chick out there

Yani never falls!

But yani just never fell, before...

This shit we got going

Brought me to the floor

I don't know what this really is

Maybe I never will

Only time will tell

And if not, my wounds will heal!

I set myself up...

Love & Friends go hand In hand

Cant have one without the other

Guess I'll never know

For you, my love goes no

Further...

SMDH!!!

-Ayana Lynette